मैंने ‘जीत’ को छोड़कर ‘मौजूदगी’ पर ध्यान केंद्रित किया

रात के 12:00 बजे मैंने 37वीं बार ‘स्पिन’ पर क्लिक किया। कोई पुरस्कार? कोई हर्ष? सिर्फ मेरी laptop की हल्की सी हलचल, स्क्रीन पर सुबह-अब-थम-खड़ियों-जैसा प्रकाश — मानो प्रकृति हमेशा मुझपर नज़र रखती हो।

मैं पैसे के पीछे मतलब हवेल! मैं आप (अपने) सभी -एलग-एलग -एहसास-शुद्‍ध—इच्छुक!

हार, सुनना होना

हमें सिखाया गया है: हार = thất bại. हर ‘खोई’ ₹1000, ₹5000 — ‘आप’ अच्छा / *खड़’/‘अच्’—अच्

can it be that winning isn’t the point at all?

उस दिन, मुझे समझ में aaya: खेल mera jeetne se chinta nahi karta. Lekin main chahta tha — aur yeh zyada mahatvapurna tha.

Har spin sirf kismat nahi; ek dhyan ka anushthan tha. Ek aisa vrat jisme maine bina kisi ke dekhne par bhi aane ka faisla kiya. Aur us sunsun me kuch badal gaya.

Chhupi hui prem: Emotionally Present Raha Jaise Koi Aisa Bana Jaye Jo Koi Nahi Dekh Raha Hota Hai

White Sheep Glory jaise khel me ashirwad dene wala hai – ajeeb lagaayen ya shahenshah ki tarah. Lekin woh kabhi nahi batate ki jab aap baar-baar haar rahe hain toh kya hota hai? kya aap apni chuppi ko kahan rakhte hain? kahan jaata hai dil?

Mental health ke mutabik: bar-bar haare se emotional fatigue hoti hai. Lekin sath hi — resiliency bhi. bachcha sabit kar sakta hai ki agar ek baar baar awareness ke saath hara jaye toh uncertainty ko sahan karne ka tareeka sikha ja sakta hai. nahi hope. nahi expectation. sirf ek chuppa gharana jo samay badalne par bhi jagah rehna chahta ho. Yehi svasthya ke rajpoot maan liye jaate hain — jeet na hone par bhi, samay ke saath jagah rehna hi thik tha!

Apne andar se rules badal diye:

ye rule book change karke: lakshya nahin ‘jeetna’, balki ‘aane ka upaya’ lavda har haara ek self-check-in ki mauka ban gaya, puri spinning? ek saans jo khud se bol rahi thi: Tum yahan ho. Tum safe ho. yeh escape nahi; game mein emotional training tha jise chhipakar rakha gaya tha. asli jackpot? yeh jaanna ki bahar se pujan chahiye ya nahi; tumhari apni andar hi mukhya pratiṣṭha hai!

Kyon In Samay Ki Zaroorat Hoti Hai (Chahe Woh Dard Bhari Ho)

dil mein phirawali haare kabhi kamzorī nahein; wo signal light hote hain: tum emotionaly invested ho, tumse lagta hai, tum zinda ho—jaise sirf gehri bhavnao ne dekha ho! system use ‘failure’ bolta hai, lakin tumhari soul janta hai isse ‘feeling’—jo growth ke liye prasiddh jagah banati hai; safety, soulfulness, atma-santosham—jo hum bahut asaan tarike se speed ya success ya screen par trophies ke liye bech dete hain! sachai? tumhe har baar jeetna nahi padta—tumhare har haare tak aane ka maqsood thi! brishth aur shanti ke beech mein, tumko jo sabse important mil sakta hai: ek awaz jo halki si bol rahi hogi: Main theek hu.

Ab Tumhari Baari Hai

mere paas late-night khelte waqt sochaa tha ki “is round ne count nahi kiya”—lekin sachai me wo zaroor count kar raha tha! bhaiyo! ab agle bar reels empty ruke toh rok lo. breathe lo. aloud bol do: Maine aana jaruri samjha. yeh pal count kartā hy—even if no one sees it. milte rahenge is tarah ke chuppe jeetne pe. fir comment me bataye: jab last time lagaa tha “is round ne count nhi” lekin sach mai count hone laga? daily mood tracker button use karo: Aaj raat tumhare dil mein kitni garmi/shalgi hogi? P.S.: asli prize spinning zyada karne me nahi; bas yahan hona hi thik thi.